Life is busy and time really does fly.... One morning you wake up, and BAM....!!!....your sweet, quiet, sensitive, creative boy is graduating from Elementary School. Still, I can hardly believe that Tate is in Middle School. I wake him up every morning with dread that he will have to hear bad language, witness bad behavior and has been left friendless in such a hostile place. Coleman ignores it and is engrossed in school. Tate watches and takes it all in. It might even damage him a little... I hate that. On a positive note, Tate is working hard at Lakelands. He has a lot against him with his attention and focus hurdles, but he plugs on and is getting very good grades. We pretty much work together every night. At the end of the school year, we will either be the best of friends or the worst of enemies. I am thinking FRIENDS. At least I get to use my brain. Ask me about Specialization or Trade or Economic Decision Making..... I just might be able to tell you the definition AND give an example! Ha ha!!
I have to admit I really felt sad at Tate's graduation. He has been fairly sheltered at DES. His best friend is going to another school and the other friends are really friends by association. This combination makes for a rough start at MS. Another worry.... another reason to get on my knees. I know Tate will be fine, but I don't know if he will be happy. I think I will find him another place next year. In fact, I know I will. Coleman wanted to stay at LPMS. Why? I do not know. I don't think Tate will feel the same and certainly there will be no love lost if I leave that school and never come back.
I didn't mean for this to be a sappy "journal entry".... I just wanted to show Tate's graduation pics and be happy that that was accomplished. Another post remembered and captured.... and a little less guilt on my part. BUT..... our life is different this school year. I am different. Believe it or not, I do yell less. I am trying and succeeding in connecting with my kids more. We have a better night routine (most nights....). Eric is reading with Tate. We take turns reading with Gabe and Finn. Coleman and I have been reading the scriptures together. We talk more, love more, endure more, run around more, are learning more and are becoming a better family. I have never been more busy. I feel like I am running all day until I fall into bed. I still need to schedule my time better and get my chubby body into shape, my stuffed closets sorted out and organized, improve on my scripture reading and a list of other things BUT I am doing better. We are doing better. My last thought is I have learned that when you are trying hard to make your life better and more meaningful, it will fall into place and happen. The Lord loves us, loves me and knows that we want to be better in all aspects of our lives. I want to be the person He put me on this earth to be. And with that..... happy graduation Tate. We love you and are so proud of you.
Life is good. Yes, life is good.
